Expectation Hurts

"What we anticipate seldom occurs, what we least expected usually happens.",,, Have you ever been in a situation that makes this line true? Have you ever expected something to happen but sadly it didn't happen? I don't know what your answer is,, but as for me,, yes,, I'm in the same situation right now. Just a few hours ago,, I have this feeling of disappointment, not for another person, but rather for myself,, I was disappointed because I wasn't able to hit my target grade in our last quiz in Circuits,, it may not be a big deal for you,,, but for me it's significant,,, I was really confident before that I'll be able to get perfect or at least a high score in our last quiz... I was expecting I will be able to pass that exam,,, but sadly,,, when our professor gave us the results today,, Surprisingly I failed  =(  my score is way too far from my expectations,,, While I was holding my test paper, I suddenly felt the shame; and that situation just broke my heart... I really want to cry that moment,, my tears are just about to fall,, but I just controlled myself and chose to remain silent,, keeping my disappointment inside,,, =( Hearing some of  my classmates cheer because they passed the test makes me feel small and unable,,, it also makes me feel like I'm not good.. BUT then, i suddenly realize I should not feel that way,,, instead I should be thankful to God because still, I got higher score compared to my other classmates,,, I realize I should not think of myself as small and unable,,, because i have a BIG GOD that is able and powerful.... maybe God has a purpose why He let this thing happen to me,, probably He's trying to teach me a lesson that i should keep in mind,,, This day might have been a very bad day for me,, I still thank God for He turned this day as a BLESSING,,,

Unwritten Pasts

I just realize how amazing it is if I will be able to write everything about myself. I would like to give thanks to my Besbro,,, He's the one who encouraged me to create my own blog account :-) ,, If not because of him I will not be able to experience how fun it is to have your own page. By the way, enough for that, I'll tell you now something that is personal,, In my 18 years of existence, there are lots of things that had happened,, if oceans will serve as ink,, and heaven as the paper,, I tell you, they're not enough if you will ask me to write all the remarkable memories of my past! If I can only write them all here in this page, I definitely would; but sadly, that is not possible anymore :-(  I've already forgotten all the dates, the event and the people involved. Anyway, I need not to be sad, I need not to regret,, because there's still more to come! More fun, more adventure, more excitement and more blessings to come! I promise I will not forget to write them all in this page; not even a simple event... I need to sleep, it's too late, it's already morning, I still have classes later.......zZZzZZzz.....